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tisdag 10 juli 2007

Morning thoughts...

It’s raining… And the windows were so heavy (3-glass windows??) I don’t dare to lift them and pick them into the garage to grind old paint away and paint them. Afraid to drop them and crush the glass in them! So here I am sitting. I have to wait for a man to come here and help me; one of my brothers. One is on his way to Germany and the other is working. So maybe I can write instead. And maybe go seeing something near here. Take a “fika” (coffee or tea with bread of some kind to it) there.

And a walk in the rain with cloths suitable for that! You need daylight even more a day like this!!?? I get dizzy in my head just being inside days like these!!?

Things I read trigger thoughts…

Came to think: emotional and physical needs are even more basic than the need for food?? (how was Maslow’s pyramid now? Read about this long ago). Can it be? The newborn baby needs being taken in physically? Before everything else? And later that sort of security comes first? If there is a disaster around the child, the main thing is being taken up in a grown ups arms before anything else? Even before food and warmth (heat?)?? The child can stand being without food longer than we think?? The assurance of physical security and warmth on the child’s terms and with deepest respect for its integrity is more important than anything? Physical contact, physical warmth, where your needs aren’t being used or exploited!?

Came to think about the issue integrity, respecting it. What Kirkengen writes about this. Both what concern grown ups, but not least children. And integrity in different senses; emotional, physical and sexual ad respecting it.

Read recently about a now 72-year old man claiming that sexual experiences at the age of 12 with grown up men hadn’t harmed him. He even enjoyed it if I understood the Norwegian text right. A Norwegian author Karin Fossum also thought it was ok to think it can actually be so… I got a bit surprised over this… Thinking of what Jennifer Freyd has written about Consensual Sex Decision Mechanism CSDM. And power differentials. When it comes to a boy and a grown up man – how is this relation seen to power differential and CSDM?? But people use to claim how men and boys during the antique used to have sex and claim this didn’t harm the young men…

I think a young boy has to protect himself by thinking it didn’t harm… That he even enjoyed it and maybe even wanted it??

He thought that the society is stigmatizing children who actually enjoys this and are creating a trauma that wouldn’t be there if the societies view on this was different. Not so condemning.

A friend wrote a reply to this, where she ended with something in this style (my interpretation): if these experiences were so positive and made such an ineffaceable, indelible impression on this man, then it wouldn’t be difficult at all for him (and others claiming that this was love) to understand what painful violations (of other kinds) do with the life. If they really were that good and positive this man would be empathic and sensitive for the sufferings of others, maybe be more sensitive and empathic than others!?

This now old man Tor Erling Staff means that the victims for sexual abuse shall not be marked by death, i.e., not be treated as pariah? But this man, lawyer, ought to know that it is a long time since victims of abuse were criminalized for being participants in the violation as my friend wrote!? But many still has this view on abuse victims of all kinds, and especially sexual abuse victims?? That they wanted it? That they had done something that made them deserve what they were exposed to? Is such things still involved?? And even more for people of that age or??

She thinks that Staff wishes a society without people which are victims of sexualized violence. And since the notion “victim” is complementary with “abuser/perpetrator”, a society without victims would therefore also be a society without abusers/perpetrators. How practical!

So for the victim Staff here the ones that did this to him weren’t abusers if he was no victim!! Therefore there was no harm done?? What he experienced and endured wasn’t abuse!??? So this idea is actually a protection for Staff, to avoid feeling the tremendous pain which in fact would be adequate? Jung (or was it someone else??) resonated in the same way, about a housemaid that took him to bed as four year old and taught him the “secrets of love” (Miller writes about this in one of her books)??

And this is also what S. Freud thought; that children actually want to have sex with grown ups?? And this idea actually covers abuse up!!?? With all what that has meant till now?? And if one as grown up is thinking like this, it’s because you need to rationalize such experiences and thus make them less painful?? But also that victims sacrifices things?? For instance he/she probably becomes less sensitive to the suffering not only of her/himself but also for others? And can become perpetrator too in turn, because he/she can’t feel empathy with her/his victim, if he/she hasn’t felt empathy for her/himself, or got help with feeling empathy with her/himself?

By the way doesn’t Miller write that if we allow a perversity in society the perversity can take new and other expressions??

Jennifer Freyd writes in chapter “Context and Controversy – Doubting the Harm of Sexual Abuse” page 37-39 about researchers which claim sexual abuse doesn’t harm. But she concludes in the end of this chapter at page 39 that:
“Nonetheless, the majority of survivors of sexual abuse report one or more periods of intense pain, loss of trust, loss of self-esteem, and other serious reactions, either at the time of the abuse or later /…/ The testimony is clear; childhood sexual abuse is harmful.

Minimizing the likelihood of sexual abuse or doubting its harm may result in a vicious circle: sexual abuse that is being perpetrated and denied even as it occurs. This helps to create an environment that implicitly permits the abuse of children.”
So, if it is like this that a majority reacts negatively, there are many which are extra vulnerable and sensitive, over-vulnerable and –sensitive? Most people seem to be??? (a bit ironic, or very ironic to be honest, over professionals talking about “sensitivity” in their clients which reacts with having problems, problems in the sense being oversensitive. Because they shouldn’ t react on what react on!!??).

She also writes at page 39:
“In many families in which sexual abuse has occurred there are other family problems (parental alcoholism, emotional abuse, marital discord) that are also harmful to children.”
I also came to think about recent findings about the brain and looked in Bosch book, found something else:
“Some of these clients have endured physically and sexually abusive childhoods. Others come from relatively ‘unabusive’ families and yet nevertheless have emotionally suffered enormously from the way in which their parents treated them as children.

The deep impact of so called ‘unabusive’ (no sexual or physical abuse) upbringing is a major blind spot in our society as well as a blind spot in many forms of therapy. Just because we weren’t beaten (too often), weren’t sexually abused, just because our mother was there when we came home from school and our father made a living for the family without drinking (too much), doesn’t mean that the child we were didn’t suffer intense pain. Even when our parents keep reassuring us that they really loved us and that we were such happy children, it doesn’t mean that we ever truly felt loved and really were happy children.”

Sun between the showers of rain. I have grinded almost half the porch step (fairly big as the tradition is here) with a grind-machine! I got a really peculiar feeling in my hands after having done this for an hour (the vibrations from the machine which also weighed a bit)!! But maybe I shall try to take the other half now after having written a little more and eaten lunch before the afternoon tea? Yes, I think so…

Let’s see if I come to brain-research too!!?? Or if I find something else to write about before that?

(pause in writing)

A walk in the afternoon after finishing the grinding of the porch step. It was almost tropic warmth in the wood, a lot of humidity after the raining. And I wonder if better weather is coming!?? That would be nice.

I hope this held together!! That I followed all threads I have in my head, many of which still are only feelings… This one can see in my writings sometimes I wonder…

måndag 18 juni 2007

För ditt eget bästa/For your own good...

Jag brast i skratt i totalförvåning och överraskning igår över en minister som berättade om en åtgärd de vidtagit (tyckte att det var så absurt?). Kommer inte ihåg vad den handlade om (det händer så mycket nu!). Men den handlade om någon förändring eller försämring – igen! Och det var en redan svag grupp som drabbades – igen.

Budskapet är – igen:

”Vi gör det för deras (ert) eget bästa!”
Av omsorg om dem (er), ja! Och folk borde vara extremt tacksamma!!??

Och Helle Klein har skrivit en jättebra och tänkvärd krönika som jag vill tipsa om, nämligen "24-timmarssamhället hotar vår mentala hälsa".

Och jag kommer att tänka på ett bud som inte alls är hedrat idag, nämligen ”Tänk på vilodagen så att du helgar den”. Det budet kanske vi borde återupprätta.

Tillägg om fler artiklar: "Lättare få hjälp med psykisk ohälsa" ut Borås tidning och "Frisk personal ger högre lönsamhet" ur LO-tidningen.

Och ledare av Sofie Wiklund i DD om kulturfestivalen "Slaggsten, Slaveri och Brännvin" om att kunna göra något, ha kul, utan alkohol. Det fanns en artikel inne i tidningen som handlade om värdldsarvets baksida, anordnad till minne av dem som jobbade i Falu gruva och deras anhöriga. Man söp helt enkelt för att orka med. Arbetet i gruvan var otroligt hårt och farligt.

"När det handlar om kulturen kring gruvan visas ofta bara en positiv och ljus sida"
som någon sa i artikeln om hur det var då. Och vidare om hur det är idag:
"Kapitalet vill göra oss till enfaldiga konsumenter som gärna bara konsumerar samma sak, för då blir det lättare att sälja."

Det är ju också något som har ändrats i kulturlivet, inte minst musiklivet: på konserter idag ska man kunna ta ett glas vin i pausen. Så var det inte för 30 eller ens 20 år sen...

Använder vi alkohol på liknande sätt som dessa gruvarbetare för länge sen för att kunna hantera våra (hårda, omänskliga) liv? fick det mig att undra.

Jag har utvecklat detta ovan ännu mer nedan på Eneglska!!!

-//-

I couldn’t help laughing in total surprise and astonishment yesterday, thought the statement was so absurd, when one of our ministers in the news told about a new measure the government has taken. There happens a lot now. They are working hard to change everything, and change it so completely so it will be difficult to change things back after their four years in power.

It was about deterioration, one in a long row – again! For an already weak group – again!

The message is – again:

“We are doing this for their´(your) own good!”
Of care for them (you)! And people shall be extremely grateful and thank them!!?? Because this is really for their/our best! A best they/we don't know ourselves!???

And I also tipped about a female journalist who has written a great chronicle wort considering; "The 24-hour society is threatening our mental health".

About being "connected" all the time, being in access always. The borders between work and free time, between work and home, are long ago canceled or neutralized. The whole pattern is changed. 30 years ago everything was structured. One knew when a TV-program started and ended, one knew when everything started and ended. Our whole life-rhythm is disturbed.

All changes in work life, slimmed organizations and higher demands has changed the life puzzle. many have difficulties finding relaxation and recovery. Today more than 2 million people over 18 years have sleeping disturbances in a population of 9 million in total (including children). And the consumption of sleeping pills is enormous.

"When teenagers are remitted (referred) from school health care for sleeping problems then it is really creepy"
a female chief physician, neurologist, here says. She has seen the sleeping problems increase during the last 30 years.

And burn out is connected to lack of sleep which in turn has its roots in stress.

The art is probably about being present, being here and now... Many of us should need and benefit from a mental on-and-off-button.

In the religious world they have used meditation, the retreat and the prayer... But meditation as tradition was lost for some decades, but has now, since a decade I think, come back in the Swedish church!!

And I came to think about the command about remembering the Sabbath-day - to hold it holy. Maybe we should restore this command...

See earlier blog posts: here and here. These are things I have to remind myself about I think...

I also came to think what a Swedish psychotherapist Lena Nevander Friström writes in her book "Fångad av arbete, svårt att säga nej, hög sjuknärvaro, inbillningsfrisk - om arbetsnarkomani och behovet av balans" ISBN 91-27-07229-0 about people caught by work, with what she calls work-addiction, difficulties to say no, high sick presence as she calls it, suffering from imagined healthiness (not imagined sickness!!!) the need for balance.

She means we can react in two main ways when we are exhausted or even burn out (for simplicity!?). One is to turn totally insensitive to the surrounding, almost in psychopathic way, with a very contemptuous view on man (and in the bottom probably on yourself). These are often what we would "label" as A-people and they suffer from the illness that everything shall go so fast, they are extremely aggressive and hostile and thus not so fun to have to do with when they get stressed or tired or exhausted.

An extreme A-type behavior is though not so common, but this sort of people are increasing in the world (why do we have to be so clever and why do more and more people have to be so clever? What are we living on this earth for? But I am also the sort of person which is very interested in what I do) . It has shown that this sort of people had a "difficult" childhood the researcher Alexander Perski, mentioned below, in fact writes!!! Parents seriously betraying their children, who drinks, or disappears or get sick Or these adults experienced an extreme form of conditional love and very high demands from their parents when they were small and grew up!!!

The stress-researcher mentioned above, Alexander Perski writes in his book"Out of Balance" ("Ur balans" ISBN 9185015008 in Swedish) about another type of behavior they have found on top of the A- and B- type. Namely one they call the D-type. These people don't react with aggressiveness but with depression. And not with hostility against the environment either? They try and try and try to make a good job, the best possible without getting really angry??

But he writes that neither a negative view on life nor social inhibition in itself doesn't increase the risk for stress diseases!

And Perski also underline the importance of having forums in which you can express yourself!! Where you can canalize tensions, fears or experiences of threat. This apparently functions as lightning-conductors! Gives one perspective on ones situation and better proportions on things; when we are allowed to resonate ourselves forward and use our intellectual resources to solve problems. Others can also contribute with their views... This is not only about contact with others, but also about contact with oneself/yourself! If the talking partner is a good talking partner!!??

Tips about two more articles: about that it is easier to get help with psychic un-health (I don't know the proper English word, ohälsa in Swedish), more and more people don't feel well psychologically, more feel anguish, and more suffer from social phobias, but people today tend to seek help more than before, one talk more openly about these things in society today. And the other was about that a staff which is healthy gives higher profitability to the company or work place, people make a better job and more productive (in a healthy way?).

And there was a leader and article in the local newspaper today about a culture festival, about the dark sides of the World Heritage round the copper mine in Falun. This life is often painted fairly rosy, but the truth is that this life was extremely hard and dangerous for the workers and their families for many, many hundred years (this mine has existed for 1,000 years I think). To cope with it the miners drank a lot of Scandinavian vodka (brännvin in Swedish), and they were also paid with brännvin I think on top.

A man says:

"When one talk about the culture around the mine one often show a positive and bright side of it!"
The leader writer, only 26 years I think, reflected on the customs among Swedish people, that they (we!??) can't have fun without alcohol... And people say things they would never have said without alcohol in the body...

The man interviewed says further:

"The capital wants to make ("transform"? :-)) us to silly consumers, who readily consumes just one thing [alcohol??] , because then it [this stuff?] gets easier to sell"!! [??]
And this festival wanted to prove that it is actually possible to have fun without alcohol. :-)

20-30 years ago it wasn't customary with wine in the pauses at concerts as it is today struck me when I read this...

Do "we" use alcohol in a similar manner as these miners did long ago, to be able to cope with our lives, I suddenly came to wonder??? These miners was that time's "slaves". They had no options to earn their living!? Are we this time's slaves???

And, yes, what has happened on ourchildhood, to come back to that, was it for people's own good??? :-) Quite ironically! Almost as the politician which this blog post started with!??? I didn't think of this connection when I wrote this blog post!!

tisdag 12 juni 2007

Ytterligare stilla morgonbetraktelse/another silent morning contemplation...

Om människor får artikulera sig så löses spänningar och tvång i kroppen upp. Och göra det i "säkert" sammanhang, dvs. med någon som inte moraliserar, utan faktiskt vet vad det handlar om och inte känner sig tvungen att hindra eller begränsa... Och jag är inte säker på att det alltid bäst sker hos dem som egentligen borde vara bäst på detta!!!

Om de skadade/hjälpsökande får ifrågasätta och betrakta som fel och skadligt och faktiskt orättvist... Om de kan komma förbi självklander och skuld... Först då kan saker verkligen lösas upp?? Inte förr? Fast det är klart, man måste ju själv vilja ta itu... Ingen kan "få" någon annan att göra det...

Jag har fler blogginlägg som jag vill skriva; citera mer ur Freyd i kapitlet "Creating Connections - Long-Lasting Damage" och ur neurologen Jonathan Pincus' bok "Base Instinct - What Makes Killers Kill?" ISBN 0393-32323-4 kapitlet "Hitler and Hatred".

Och så pratade de i "Gomorron Sverige" nu på SVT nu på morgonen om barnarbete i värden, att barn är utslitna kroppsligen redan innan de når vuxenåldern. Och att barnarbete inte bara existerar i den fattiga världen, utan också bland annat i USA... De intervjuade en LO-kvinna om detta. Som menar att anledningen att detta också kan ske i rika länder beror på att de har en svag fackföreningsrörelse i dessa länder.

Jag utvecklar detta nedan på engelska tror jag...
-//-

If people get the opportunity to articulate things safely, with someone that doesn't moralize, but knows deeply and from own experiences what it is about, then tensions and compulsions slowly gets dissolved...

If they are given the opportunity and permission to question and look at and consider as wrong and injurious and in fact unfair what they have been through... If they can go beyond self-blame and guilt... If not they are stuck, more or less, depending on the degree to which they are or have been allowed to express themselves, stuck in compulsions for instance.

But people usually don't do this "naturally" or voluntarily, because usually they are very and extremely loyal to parents... They must be explicitly asked, and this for instance Kirkengen has written about.

[addition at 12.17: found this Readers' mail at Millers web "Ferenczi's prison" about staying in the brain, intellectualizing].

But of course you yourself must do the work, want to do it... And noone can "get" another to start doing it... On the other hand we as adults have responsibility for what we do and say... We can't use excuses that we were abused or damaged early...

And we can try to talk about things, communicate, to maybe see beyond misinterpretations and misunderstandings. Probably not always the easiest thing however, but... And of course, sometimes we have to realize when there is no idea to go on trying to achieve something that isn't possible to achieve... And maybe with this confront ourselves with a pain we have tried to push away, probably not consciously.

The stronger urges and feelings the more it is probably about something past!? And it's a risk that these strong feelings are leading us wrong, maybe creating troubles and problems... But this isn't easy or simple!!! Because strong feelings and reactions can perhaps also be necessary for changes...

You do mistakes, and have to take these too? You do painful mistakes and have to realize this? Or you have difficulties to realize them, because both the present and the past is so painful, and then you easily get stuck!? In maybe an entire reenaction of past events and relations... And maybe you have to do many such mistakes before you can confront yourself with some sort of a truth??

Yes, there lies a lot in Millers thought that the fourth commandment rules the world, and still does, even among those that aren't Christians...

I have a couple of blog posts I would like to write; quoting more from Freyd, the chapter "Creating Connections - Long-lasting Damage" and from the neurologist Jonathan Pincus book "Base Instinct - What Makes Killers Kill" (ISBN see above) the chapter "Hitler and Hatred".

On the morning news this morning they talked about child work and child workers. That many children are worn our already before they reach adult life. And that this phenomenon isn't something special for the poor or third world, but also exists in rich countries such as for instance US. They thought this is due to the fact that in these rich countries the trade union is weak, and has much less power...

And the trade unions are getting weaker in other countries too, slowly... Why is that? What mechanisms behind? How are people still raised in this world? When so many believe in this view on man and the world?

And how come it seems as it is so easy to manipulate people, not only with political ideas... See also commercials and the science behind this... To brainwash people... There have been discussions on blogs about this topic; how some political ideas have been spread very persistently in the whole western world, if not maybe the whole world, by people with a lot of money and resources. And again, in psycho history they talk about psycho classes (categorizing and labeling :-)) and they mean that the more backward psycho classes have greater needs of power (and see what Miller has written about the need for power, and what expressions it takes and how it is allowed to be expressed: women have exercised power against their own children in lack of something else to exercise it on. Others also mean that the healthier and sounder a human being is the less he/she need power*)... I wonder; the ones that are spreading these ideas what is driving them? And why is the rest of the population so easily manipulated to believe in this. But, true, many also dare to raise their voices and question the state of affairs, but...

People are afraid of speaking up, but see this; "Freedom of Speech" for instance.

To what degree would this manipulation be possible if peoples ability to see and hear etc. wasn't damaged? Freyd writes about this; how abused people view the world (and the results on their capacity of protecting themselves adequately and properly)... Kirkengen too, but from another angle; how eyes and ears can fool... How seeing and hearing can get distorted even if there is no faults on the eyes or the ears!!

How do we view/look upon human beings? As creatures, things? Just to use and then throw away? And why?

I would also want to write about victimization of people in medicine and psychiatry... How people aren't helped, are even more damaged, and can't change their lives radically... But maybe gets stuck even more in destructive relations, circumstances... Because they aren't allowed to see through or question... Are looking up on authorities... (This written with anger).

How many haven't wasted a lot of time on meaningless consultations and help of all kinds? Causing a lot more; in health, in relations, in social life etc. Unable to constructively handle their lives, because problems have in fact been added!!?? And the most harmed risk getting even more stuck... The less can quit bad circumstances faster and more easily!? The more harmed are at risk of drawing even more harm on them and are at risk of being drawn to worse helpers? If they don't have an enormous luck to encounter the "right person" from the beginning or already early in real life!

Yes, something happened that made me think... Sleeping badly... Awoke with head ache...

I had planned to wash the curtains and windows, but I don't feel for it right now really... Not for going out on a bike trip either... It's really hot despite the thunder yesterday when I went to bed.

söndag 5 augusti 2007

Now things I have discussed with a person standing near…

So this is more high thinking:

One parts ability to self-criticism won’t keep a relation going, definitely not in long-term…

If the (early) hurt or injured person takes responsibility for her/his injury or damage others space won’t have to be shrank, even if the damage and injury is big. People who care for each others want to help the best they can, show respect and consideration for each others damages etc. This is not burdening, but if you have to “save” the other person from his/her damage then you get exhausted. That is if the damaged want to flee from his/her damage and want help with this flight rather than taking care about it or doing something with the damage and injury; as trying to meet it, processing it and repairing it the best he/she can. Responsibility is the keyword if there shall be space for other people around the injured, damaged.

If one takes responsibility for ones injury and damage there is space for others around you and their possible injuries and damages too. All can exist with theirs. No one at the expense of any other person. No one that has to shrink his/her living space.

Even small wounds needs treatment. It’s not a question of who is more or less damaged!? Big wounds don’t take small wounds away. Neither if they are sitting on others nor on one and the same person. A wound is a wound. And to “live” on your wounds, taking advantage of them, profit by them, even benefiting on them, to parasitize on others sympathy and empathy – that’s really a flight from the pain itself and the damage, injury – those things that needs attention and processing, the opposite of responsible-taking.

Yes, there is always someone that is more hurt. And even small wounds needs treatment. If they don’t get they can cause more damage. Both for oneself and for others. Damage that wouldn’t be necessary at all.

We have spoken about communication, to give and to take. To narrate/tell and get to hear. But connected to this is the risk you loose the control, and thus the power (or can’t this mean a lot of possibilities too?)? A risk you take/can take: that the other part gets opportunity to talk and give her/his view on the whole!? But this also means that you perhaps are forced to listen and to hear!? Maybe this is too dangerous. In a way one gives the other part power? And maybe one doesn’t want to do that, for everything in the world!?

But of course there are limits for how long you can go here, strive and struggle and try and understand!! Of course you can get used and even exploited!! And that risk is greater if you are already damaged and haven’t got opportunity to process your damages enough… So, no, this ISN’T easy!!! (it is steadily more acknowledged that for instance women who were sexually abused, or abused in other ways as children, are at risk of landing in abusive relations as grown ups too! And the less hurt you have been the smaller is this risk!!! So some can really land in viscous circles, and are on top often stigmatized by the environment and the society, which is horrible isn’t it?).

An industry-man here in Sweden Michael Treschkow spoke on radio (Sommar). I didn’t listen to this programme, but he had said that he was glad Nelson Mandela wasn’t bitter!!! That he didn’t show any such signs!!! Without mentioning that the Swedish trade and industry union (Svenskt näringsliv) “earned a lot of money on the apartheid-regime” a female Swedish journalist said very ironically I felt, as a reply to that SHE was accused for carrying on propaganda for the communism in HER Sommar-programme!

That’s the other side of the coin?? Not being bitter, not behaving like a victim, a poor powerless victim, but “taking yourself in the collar” (as we say here) and show how clever you are despite the worse circumstances: rise from these, in the best case, to success!!! This will be applauded!!! Enormously! And you will become enormously admired!!! Every time you “stand up from your bed and walk away with it” as a Lazarus once did!?? How much you even sacrifice!! Even if the effects come high up in ages!! We are all human beings, even the strongest and cleverest have human limits!!?? Or do we need to believe in something else? Why?

Even in therapy, you have to avoid being a victim. This is worth a separate blogpost, but if you were a victim, of course you still are if you haven’t had or still don’t have opportunity to process it. You are, but you can be responsible-taking at the same time!!?? Jenson has written about this, about the prohibition against victim-feelings, and I think Bosch too.

Is this, to summarize this topic, “contempt for weakness”? That stems from early, I wonder? Many of us have needs for control, power – and strength!!?? And why is that?

To be able to admit to and address damage, the damage, injury has to be acknowledged by the damaged. To seek or search for excuses isn’t to acknowledge. Honestly wanting to acknowledge, even if it certainly is difficult and painful and probably even frightening!? And shouldn’t become minimised, but maybe it’s less scary than we thinks.

Relations between children and their respective parents: everything the parents think is bothersome, which had demanded a little processing from the parents parts/side, for instance “Why am I so afraid for my husband (wife??) when he (she?) gets angry?” could end in a divorce depending on how the man (woman??) reacts on the woman’s (man’s) questioning of his (her) “right” to vomit or belch out his (her) temper or mood on the nearest victim. Everything the parents think is bothersome – which had risked their status quo in life – the children have to take, carry, stand, repair etc.

I think the roots to all these things lies early in life. Which doesn’t mean later experiences doesn’t count… Or should become diminished.

måndag 18 juni 2007

Miller on the Wall of Silence/Miller om tigandets mur...

I will first "warn" the reader that this blog post contains serious critic of Miller and members of her so called “team”… So avoid reading this if you don’t think you can stand that Miller is criticized.

Miller writes in her book ”Breaking Down the Wall of Silence – The Liberating Experience of Facing Painful Truth” about the little girl as in Franz Kafka’s short story “In der Strafkolonie” (1919) doesn’t become enlightened about her criminal behaviors (and evilness) by her mother. The little girl experienced the Wall of Silence already as a little girl Miller writes.

Her mother could day after day meet her daughter with silence for in this way demonstrate her absolute and complete power over her. The little girls needs, questions and suggestions was taken a back against this compact wall without that the mother has to defend herself for this sadism. She rather perceived this attitude as a fair and well-earned punishment for offenses (misdemeanors!!) the little girl had committed and as her duty to teach her a “lesson”.

The reason for this torment the child wasn’t enlightened about by her mother, in spite of perpetual, hopeless efforts to try to get to know and understand.

In the omission and negligence to enlighten the child which was punished there laid a message:

“If you don’t even know what makes you deserve this punishment, then you have no conscience. Seek, search, do your utmost best till your conscience tells you what guilt you have brought down upon you. Maybe you then could try to apologize and dependent on the temper of the one in power you can, if you are lucky, maybe get forgiveness.”

Rather the little girl doubted on the rightfulness of her own feelings; that this was cruel and sadistic and loveless, that she was unfairly and despisingly and contemptuously met by her mother. Besides the little girl had nothing to compare with, that is other mothers which maybe behaved differently, and this mother also showed herself as completely sacrificing herself and very aware of her duties and obligations.

And this was what the little girl had to believe in, because the truth would have been too painful and difficult to experience on her own.

The fault could only lie in her own wickedness when mom didn’t talk to her, not answered her questions, didn’t see her, didn’t pay her any attention and neglected her, didn’t care about her when she asked for an explanation, but avoided her gazes and met her with cold.

“If mom hates me I must deserve to be hated!”
a child thinks.

What was demanded, implicitly (this wasn't said out straightly and clearly either, talk about an entire and total power!!) - to say it frankly - was to mind read!?

The child was isolated, alone (despite all people around), but the memory of this including the despair over not being informed about the reason for this punishment was suppressed. The absurd behavior her mother showed and the child’s trials to whatever prize understand her mother and at last be able to change her destiny, understand the mother, make her talk, was suppressed. Nobody helped her to see the truth there and then. This lonely searching the latter adult continued in the abstract theories labyrinths (as in Alice Miller’s case)…

And she takes this with her up into adult life. Either she struggle hopeless struggles against the Wall of Silence as she meets later and/or she herself uses the Wall of Silence, maybe not least against own children, if she has any. Maybe without even being aware of it or understanding the reasons or roots at all because she doesn't have access to the original experiences and causes and roots… So that the grown up lands in self destructive or destructive relations…

I speculate that this can be harmful in therapeutic relations or in circumstances which resemble therapeutically relations… But a grown up have generally entirely different choices than a small child… As grown up it is or should be easier to chose and not chose. But it isn’t easy for a grown up either, if he/she has experiences she/he has suppressed. It can even be very difficult.

It can be particularly harmful in circumstances which resemble or downright are therapeutic relations/circumstances. If the one with authority and power meet the one with less power with the Wall of Silence, and not at all try to motivate or explain why she/he reject or does this and that.

I think one then are recreating or re-enacting this early relation, when the mother met her little girl with the Wall of Silence… Have the power not to have to explain or motivate your decision maybe at all… But nothing is dissolved either, everything is only repeated, and maybe even a little bi more strengthened?

And what the one in power and/or authority position maybe plays out is her/his own need for power, unconscious needs, the power for not having to or being forced to by anyone to motivate or explain or talk about what one sees as wrong, what one reacts on etc.? And maybe thus not giving the other part an opportunity to defend her/himself or come with her/his view on the whole or anyone to come to terms with anything? And a real, genuine meeting isn't possible, neither any real healing?

If the client leaves a therapy and therapist with a lot of unanswered questions, for instance about the therapy and the therapist, then he/she is left with a lot of fantasies… With the possibility of imaging her/himself a lot of answers, maybe totally in the blue and far away from any truth…

With following confusion… I think I would like to write another blog post about guilt from something I read when I skimmed the book by Miller mentioned above through.

When one is accused “explicitly” (not "implicitly" by silence and demands on mind reading) of crimes, i.e., you are put to court, and even the worse criminal (yes, even the worse serial killer including dictators as for instance Milosevic, even the one denying her/his crimes entirely) are given the opportunity to defend themselves and give their view on the whole before any judgments is established. In a (civilized) society you aren’t punished without being informed as clearly and detailed as possible what you are punished for and the punishment is settled according to the character of the crime. And what you are punished for has to be proved.

And the accused also has a counsel for the defense; even the worse criminals have a defender, are allowed one.

I don’t think it has been like this at ourchildhood.int, not least with the new moderator Barbara Rogers… And I wonder if this fact means that people can have become severely hurt because of the treatment they have experienced. In a circumstance and with the “quality-mark” as Alice Miller after all is or should be. In a circumstance where one would expect and have the right to expect more professional treatment, that isn’t harmful or even adding harm. That even revictimizes people!

I wonder how many which have gone from this forum with a lot of unanswered questions and thus with a lot of fantasies and imaginations what it was about, what they were punished for etc. too.

Is this power abuse? Can this have caused harm and even severe harm in several individuals? That people have been rejected and unsubbed with no answer? Because the moderator had the power to do so? And is it the most or less hardened which are left with a lot of unanswered questions, the ones that tend less to question themselves, and being left on their own with a lot of wonders, fantasies, imaginations about their actual crimes and the true, real reasons for why they were thrown out?

As in the same manner as the little girl described above? Which was met with cold, silence and rejection, without being enlightened in any way what wrong she had done. Left to examine herself? And if she didn’t understand what she had done wrong she only proved how evil and bad and what a lost soul she was. She ought to come creeping to the cross saying she realized all her guilt, badness and evilness, asking forgiveness (how was it with asking about forgiveness?), even if she didn't understand what she had done, trying with everything: Yes, I know, I did this... And this? Was it this? Or this?

A forgiveness that was all depending on the mood in the one with power. And the punished doesn’t know what she/he shall answer or refute, i.e., what her/his punishable misdemeanor is, just like in Kafka's strafkolonie (penal settlement), where the punished has to ransack her/himself – and mind read!!?? And if he/she doesn’t succeed with this, then… yes, this is possibly proof of the degree of how lost a soul you are??

And how healing is instilling guilt on a client that already carries a heavy burden of guilt on her shoulders over her badness?? Yes, maybe that's a separate blog post?

An entirely different track on this theme about the Wall of Silence is when grown up people are confronted with it adult and everyday life, outside all therapeutically circumstances and all what this can mean, but that’s another blog post… :-)

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Denna postning innehåller ganska allvarlig kritik av Alice Miller och medlemmar i hennes team, så om du inte vill läsa om det, så skippa denna postning.

Miller skriver i sin bok "Riv tigandets mur - Sanning byggd på fakta" i kapitlet "Förvirringens fängelse" om den lilla flickan som liksom i Franz Kafkas "I straffkolonin" inte blir upplyst om sina straffbara förseelser (och sin ondska) av sin mamma. Den lilla flickan upplevde tigandets mur redan som en liten flicka skriver Miller.

Hennes mor kunde hela dagar i sträck möta sin dotter med tystnad för att på detta sätt demonstrera sin absoluta och fullständiga makt över henne. Den lilla flickans behov, frågor och förslag studsade tillbaka mot denna kompakta mur utan att denna mor behövde försvara sig för denna sadism. Hon betraktade snarare denna attityd som ett rättvist och välförtjänt straff för förseelser som den lilla flickan hade begått och som sin plikt att lära henne en "läxa".

Anledningen till sin plåga fick barnet inte veta, trots ständiga, hopplösa bemödanden att få veta och förstå.

I underlåtenheten att upplysa om varför barnet straffades med detta tigande låg ett budskap:

"Om du inte ens vet vad du har förtjänat straffet för har du ju inget samvete. Sök, forska, ansträng dig tills ditt samvete säger dig vad det är för skuld du har ådragit dig. Först då kan du försöka urskulda dig och beroende på makthaverskans humör kan du, om du har tur, kanske få förlåtelse."

Hellre tvivlade den lilla flickan på riktigheten i sin egen känsla; att detta var grymt och sadistiskt och kärlekslöst, att hon blev orättvist och ringaktande behandlad av sin mor. Dessutom hade den lilla flickan inget att jämföra med, dvs. andra mödrar som kanske betedde sig annorlunda, och denna mamma framställde sig också som totalt uppoffrande och pliktmedveten.

Och detta var den lilla flickan tvungen att tro på, för sanningen hade hon inte klarat av att uppleva på egen hand. Den hade varit för smärtsam.

Felet kunde alltså bara ligga i hennes egen elakhet när mamma inte talade med henne, inte besvarade hennes frågor, inte såg henne, nonchalerade och negligerade henne, inte brydde sig om henne när hon bad om en förklaring, utan undvek hennes blickar och bemötte hennes med kyla.

"Om mamma hatar mig måste jag vara värd att hata"

tänker ett barn.

Barnet isolerades, blev ensamt (trots människor omkring), men minnet av detta inklusive förtvivlan över att inte få veta anledningen till detta straff trängdes bort. Det absurda beteendet hos hennes mamma och barnets försök att till varje pris förstå sin mamma för att till sist ändå kunna förändra sitt öde, förstå modern, få henne att tala trängdes bort. Ingen hjälpte henne att se sanningen där och då. Detta ensamma sökande fortsatte den senare vuxna i de abstrakta begreppens labyrinter (som i Alice Millers fall)...

Och så för hon detta med sig upp i vuxenlivet. Antingen genom att hon kämpar hopplösa kamper mot tigandets murar som hon möter senare och/eller att hon själv möter, kanske inte minst egna barn, med denna tigandets mur? Kanske utan att ens vara medveten om det eller förstå orsakerna... Så att den vuxne hamnar i självdestruktiva eller destruktiva relationer...

Jag tänker att detta kan vara ganska skadligt i terapeutiska relationer eller i sammanhang som liknar terapeutiska relationer... Men en vuxen har generellt helt andra valmöjligheter än ett litet barn har... Som vuxen är eller borde det vara lättare att välja eller välja bort. Men det är inte lätt för en vuxen heller att välja bort, om den har upplevelser som den ovan bortträngda. Det kan till och med vara jättesvårt.

Och framförallt kan det bli skadligt i sammanhang som liknar eller rentav är terapeutiska relationer/sammanhang. Om den med auktoritet och makt bemöter dem med mindre makt med tigandets mur; inte bemödar sig alls med att motivera eller förklara varför man avvisar...

Jag tror då att man återskapar den där tidiga relationen; när mamman bemötte den lilla flickan med tigandets mur... Har makten att inte måsta förklara eller motivera sitt beslut kanske alls...

Och det den i makt- och/eller auktoritetsposition kanske spelar ut är sitt eget maktbehov, omedvetet, makten att inte måsta eller behöva motivera eller förklara eller tala om vad man anser vara fel, vad man reagerat på? Och kanske ge den andra parten möjlighet att försvara sig eller komma med sin syn på saken...

Om klienten lämnar en terapi och terapeut med en massa frågor som inte besvarats, bland annat om terapin och terapeuten, så har denne/denna med sig en massa fantasier... Och kan kanske tänka sig ett otal svar på sina frågor... Med åtföljande förvirring. jag tror jag skulle vilja skriva ytterligare ett inlägg om ämnet skuld, utifrån något jag läste i den ovan nämnda boken av Miller när jag bläddrade igenom den hastigt...

När man anklagas för brott, blir man ställd inför domstol och även den allra värsta brottsling (ja, till och med den värsta seriemördaren inklusive diktatorer som nu senast bland andra Milosevic, även den mest omöjlige som kanske till och med förnekar alla brottsanklagelser) ges möjlighet att ge sin syn på saken innan domen fastställs. I ett (civiliserat) samhälle straffas man inte utan att man får veta så tydligt och klart som möjligt för vad och straffet fastställs i förhållande till brottets art.

Och den anklagade har också en försvarsadvokat, till och med de allra värsta brottslingarna får en sådan/har en sådan.

Så tror jag inte det har fungerat på ourchildhood.int, framförallt inte med den nya moderatorn Barbara Rogers... Och jag undrar om detta faktum innebär att människor kan ha blivit väldigt skadade av hur de behandlats där? I ett sammanhang och med den "kvalitetsmärkning" som ändå Alice Miller är eller borde vara. Ett sammanhang där man förväntar sig och bör ha rätt att förvänta sig en proffsig behandling!?

Jag undrar också vilka som kanske gått därifrån med en massa obesvarade frågor (och med därmed kanske följande oändligt många fantasier), för att de blivit avvisade och till och med avstängda utan att få någon motivation eller förklaring alls? (för så tror jag att människor har blivit behandlade. Policyn infördes med ny moderator att de som skrev skulle få veta att deras inlägg verkligen kommit fram genom att moderatorn svarade "Post was received" när inlägget refuserades. Men jag tror att det kan ha varit så att inlägg refuserades utan att moderatorn ens bemödade sig om att informera den skrivande att inlägget verkligen kommit fram).

Är detta maktmissbruk? Och kan det ha orsakat skada, kanske till och med stor skada hos flera individer? Är det de mest eller minst förhärdade som lämnats med en massa obesvarade frågor och därmed en massa möjligheter till fantasier om orsakerna och om sitt eget brott som avvisats? Ungefär på samma sätt som med den lilla flickan beskriven ovan!? Som möttes med kyla, tystnad och avvisande, utan att upplysas på något sätt om vad hon förbrutit. Lämnats att rannsaka sig? Och om hon inte förstod varför hon straffades så här bevisade hon bara hur ond och dålig och förtappad hon var!? Att allt beror på makthaverskans humör? En maktkaverska som har möjlighet att styra efter eget skön? Och den straffade vet inte vad den ska bemöta, dvs. vilken dess straffbara företeelse är, som i Kafkas "I straffkolonin". den straffade måste rannsaka sig - och tankeläsa!!??? Och förmår den inte det, så... Ja, då är det troligen bevis på graden av förtappelse??

Ett helt annat spår på samma tema om tigandets mur är ju när vuxna människor möter denna i vuxenlivet utanför alla terapeutiska sammanhang och allt vad det kan innebära där, men det är ett annat blogginlägg?? :-)

söndag 16 december 2007

Paul Krugman on the infallible Greenspan...

photo on Paul Krugman.

Paul Krugman on the infallible [ofelbara eller osvikliga in Swedish] Greenspan (my italics below):

"I once described Alan Greenspan as being like a man who suggests leaving the barn door ajar, and then - after the horse is gone - delivers a lecture on the importance of keeping your animals properly locked up.

I was talking about Greenspan’s support for the Bush tax cuts, followed by his lectures on fiscal responsibility [the linked text says a lot!!?? Things are done for our own good even if it feels hard, or even very hard! And here an American's view on G. W. Bush *].

But it also applies to what he’s saying now about the subprime crisis.

All that wisdom about an 'accident waiting to happen' — an accident for which he, of course, bears no responsibility [no, of course not!! He is granted discharge, beviljad ansvarsfrihet in Swedish].

Remember, this is the guy who brushed off Edward Gramlich when he warned about subprime problems; who 'frequently argued there could be no housing bubble.'

The chutzpah is breathtaking."

Some commentators on this:

”It’s interesting how Greenspan, whenever a crisis occurs, always sees fit to enlighten us with his genius. And always, his opinions are designed not to address the crisis at hand but to take himself off the hook. Why is this man so revered [vördad, sedd upp till in Swedish]?”

”You expected anything less from a disciple of Ayn Rand? Paul Volcker must want to ring Greenspan’s neck.”

“One of the problems of Randism is that, since it is elitist, how the elite is supposed to deal with the hoi polloi [betyder detta ungefär pöbeln? Eller motsvarigheten till plebejer, "plebs" eller "Ochlocracy". Vars motsats var/är patricier eller oligarker.]. I expect that Greenspan, like many ‘superior’ men and women, feels it is perfectly reasonable to lie to get other people to do what he wants.

“Greenspan is simply a highly-paid shill for the Wall Street banking/financial sector, much as Robert Rubin also was/is. His mostly ad hoc ‘pronouncements’ are ever self-aggrandizing [självförstorande/-upphöjande/-överdrivande] and/or self-serving. Although he likes to appear thoughtful and sober-minded, his ‘wisdom’ is mostly of the esoteric, wishful-thinking [önsketänkande], dream-content variety, with little connection to the real world most of us inhabit…one of the things I like about Krugman is that his analyses appear to bear some reasonable relationship to the REAL economy, not some ‘objectivist’ pipe-dream.”

“Alan Greenspan is a master of obfuscation and deceit [förmörkande/omtöckning och bedrägeri/svek]. Witness, for instance, his convoluted explanations in recent interviews for his statement that the Iraq war is about oil, as published in his book ‘The age of turbulence.’

"The Spanish saying ‘Tratar de quedar bien con Dios y el diablo’ (to try to be in good terms with both God and the devil) fits him to perfection…”
* Reacting at safe targets and/or symbols as kicking animals, as this small boy did… Because I don't believe any child is born with this "nature"... Later as grown up reacting at scapegoats (Miller reflects on Hitler and if he had had children: would e have been such a perpetrator then? But Stalin became despite he had children to act out against), which can give temporary relief, till the need comes back again.

Feelings that got suppressed gets triggered in the present, in all of us… Even if we don’t go so far as to kill other people or order murders. However these things can cause considerable troubles in our daily life, in reacting at things from past events so to say…

You have to act the frustration and feelings out somewhere where it is relatively safe and there we have different options (some not so many options). Or act it out on yourself, for instance by blaming yourself for being so lousy (or by self-harm in different manners, even severe)… And maybe you switch to other ways of dealing with these suppressed things. This can be really dangerous the more power a person with a lot of needs for revenge gets??

On a walk now I also came to think of power-abuse… Showed by a moderator on a closed forum… And also on mania in people with power (saw one of our ministers yesterday evening on TV and drops my mouth over the extreme gladness many in our current government shows, over all the opportunities they have now, they feel and think, to change this society completely? Saving s all!?). The need for power…

In fact I am in a hurry (as so often, a deep sigh), am going to work this afternoon: a big concert here, where 8 small pupils (mine) 6 to 9 years old are going to entertain during a café in the pause together with a colleague on "nyckelharpa" (also see here about nyckelharpa! And see the Sahlström-insitute, I am colleague with one of the founders, Eric Sahlström, sons!) with three of his pupils. And if the concert-hall is filled there will come approximately 500 persons… Phew! I don't feel in the mood for this... Just want to cry and am afraid of breaking down in tears...

And me and a colleague are also having two pupils/students from the aesthetic-program playing when people return to the concert-hall after the pause. And I am going to play in a Concerto Grosso by Corelli which I have only played once with the orchestra. And tomorrow it’s concert again, with a lot of piano-playing for me…

My mood isn’t the best. I guess I am too tired, have stretched myself too far the last time… Eager to please, be the good girl? Be so very clever? But is it on the other hand forbidden to be clever, nice etc.? Loosing my mood, temper? Breaking down in tears?? Tired and angry...

fredag 16 november 2007

Biologism...

[Uppdated November 17 and 20 in the end]. This blogger (Swedish) wrote about biologism/evolutionism and neoliberal egoism, anti-democratic currents/tides… The world belongs to the strong ones in these persons views she thought, whether it is about

“...Nazism, nihilism, Satanism or ordinary pubertal omnipotence and narcissism?? The kind of inconsiderateness they plead for is only a bit more absolute than the one they see around them”,
as a journalist that is quoted in this blogpost writes.

Biologism has come back: the tendency to explain everything in terms of being biological/evolutionary… See the gene-technique here too, she writes!? And also the social-biology: the idea that human beings social systems in first hand are an effect of our genes… The blogger makes comparisons to Hitler and the biologists, geneticists, physicians and psychiatrists Hitler surrounded himself with… (men, and some women too, who gathered around Hitler, why drawn there?).

From where comes Nazist/fascist, nihilistic, Satanist or pubertal omnipotence and narcissism? And the tendency to praise strength and that sort of superiority? From nowhere?

I would like to write a blogpost about things Jennifer Freyd has written... About what she thinks would be possible to achieve in therapy... But now I am in a hurry to work! :-)

Addition: this is about contempt for weakness!? A sort of übermensch ideal (see Nietzsche?)... And when I have been walking between schools today I also thought about this with wages... And draw parallels to what the Dutch therapist Ingeborg Bosch writes about children learned from earliest in life to share with others and the results of this... Being unselfish... Yes, she writes about this at page 123-124 in her book "Rediscovering The True Self".

Bosch writes:

"Becoming sensitive to our children's pain.

Having accessed our own pain will sensitize us to what is happening with our children, make it possible to sense when they are hurt, and help us to be there for them. In other words, we can't change the past, but we can be aware of the effects of our behavior now. The mother who used to put great emphasis on her two-years-old daughter behaving well with other children, sharing her toys etc., can now let her daughter behave her age, only two. A tree-year-old has a strong need to assert her identity and to make a clear distinction between what is hers and what isn't. She does not want to share her toys with other children. If the mother can respect this need of her child's, the child will eventually develop the empathy needed in order to really share with others. This particular skill is usually first manifested naturally when children are six years old. How many children in our society get to be 'selfish' until they are six years old? Most of us are forced into sharing at a much younger age. And how many of us develop into adults who truly can and do share with others? Don't most of us keep track of how much we have done for others, so that we know when it is their turn to do something for us? How many of us do something for others just because we want to, without expecting anything in return? Not even a thank you?

The mother who has accessed her own pain over having had to comply with the family norm of thinking of others before you think of yourself, will no longer force her little child to behave in that way. She will trust her child to develop into a loving human being when the time is appropriate."

Review of Bosch book by John Speyrer. About PRI at Primal Psychotherapy site *).

photo on Ingeborg Bosch.

But once again see what Miller writes about Primal Self-therapy.

Second addition in the evening:

There was an article in the magazine ETC that came today, called something in the style “Rebel against men’s violence against men.”

The author of the article, the Swedish journalist Maria-Pia Boëthius, writes that if one is to blame “biology” when it comes to men’s’ violence, the biological differences between men and men must be enormous. How can we otherwise explain that there are so many men whom would never ever use violence, not even lift their hands to beat and never would even think of doing something like this, while others spend their whole lives on “the planet Violence” as she writes? And some are between those two poles too.

There is research on violent men and rapists, but she should want to see studies on men who don’t resort to violence. She wonders what the difference would be between those and the violent ones. How the non-violent handle their chromosomes, the testosterone, and their genes which are said to be the origin of the other men’s (the violent ones) violence.

She means that the global, intensive, vital and for life so necessary debate about men’s violence against women stands in the way for the even more widespread violence in our time: men’s violence against men, the violence that creates most death on this earth, most victims and most perpetrators.

She wonders if it is taboo to speak about men’s violence against men (yes, is it? Too shameful?? And why is that?). She means that the intensive debate about men’s violence against women of course shall go on (not why she writes this article). But she wonders if it is the same men that are violent against women as against men? Or are there men only violating women and others who only violating and killing men? (Yes, one can wonder! And if it is so, why?) Noone knows she writes.

The violence we have seen recently: right-extremists torturing a handicapped man to death, 16-yearold boys maltreating a friend to death etc. etc. etc. – what are we seeing?

Boëthius refers to Susan Brownmiller (here Browmillers blog!), who was one of the first writing about rapes in a modern way (how do one write about that in a “modern way”?? :-)), from the women’s point of view, called the rapists the manliness’ guerrilla-soldiers. Today she would call them terrorists Boëthius thinks. Men spreading suffering and horror and making sure that the fear for “men” is maintained; women’s fear that can hit all men, how shall women know which man is violent and which is not?

This is of course offensive (wounding, hurting) for all men who never would think of being violent she thinks.Yes, and what are the roots? I wonder... I have my ideas of course...photo on Susan Brownmiller.
Uppdated November 17: Here a big reportage in Norway about men's violence against women.

Updated November 20: Här mer om biologismen och "biologisk ingenjörskonst", ett svar jag fick på en kommentar (mina kursiveringar).

k:
Det du tar upp sist i det intressanta inlägg, om biomedicin, är inte en annan diskussion som du försiktigtvis föreslår, för det är en del av biologiserandet av människan. Det är en viktig del av projektet att förvandla henne till ett objekt, ett enkelt konglomerat av biokemiska entiteter.

I botten, om man drar ut konsekvenserna till sitt yttersta, ligger föreställningar om att vi alla bara agerar utifrån våra gener. Har man väl accepterat den föreställningen, då ger sig det bästa tänkbara samhället av sig självt så småningom. Det blir ett i vilket biologer är expterna på både samhälle och socialt liv, där all social samvaro kan reduceras till biokemi och där man försöker skapa “det goda samhället” med hjälp av biokemiska åtgärder. Med sådana försöker man redan komma åt alla sociala avvikelser exempelvis.

Framtidens ingenjörskonst är inte social alltså, det är den biologiska ingenjörskonstens era vi nu träder in i. Den blir, det kan jag garantera, inte friare, trevliga eller mindre manipulativ än den sociala varianten, tvärtom."

I got a reply on a comment I wrote to the blogpost mentioned in the beginning of this blogpost. Shortly here is what stood in it:

Biologization of the human beings… A project to transform her to an object, a simple conglomerate of biological entities. In the bottom, if we draw the consequences to the utmost limit, the notion lies that we are all acting only out of our genes. Imagine a society where the biologists are the experts on both society and social life, where all social life can be reduced to biochemistry and where one tries to create the “good society” with the help of biochemical measures. With the help of this one is already trying to correct social divergences for instance. Yes, as ADHD etc.! Without not wanting to know what is in the bottom of these problems really?

But, yes, it is problematic to criticize therapy too… You can maybe play pharmacological industry in hand in a way, for the first?? And where do people in severe distress turn?? Trying other forms of help that can be as manipulative and maybe even more manipulative? Phew…

To prevent this, what should one do?? Try to raise awareness?? Here and there? Dare to speak about these things? Draw these things up in open air?? Everywhere where opportunities are given.

About Eugenics in English and in Swedish.

*) Book Review - Rediscovering The True Self by Ingeborg Bosch, 2002, pps. 288, Published by Ingeborg Bosch, PRI b.v.



Reviewed by John A. Speyrer

The author of Rediscovering The True Self has written an interesting and detailed book about a form of primal-oriented psychotherapy which she developed. Ingeborg Bosch received her 'doctoraal degree' in psychology from the University of Amsterdam. She explains that the Dutch doctoraal is between a Master's and Ph.D. degree.

Happily, Ingeborg Bosch has not joined the list of the last five authors who have written how-to books on primal-type therapies without once mentioning that one's regressions can include the traumas of birth. It is only one sentence, but she writes, "In regression clients can consciously experience their own birth." Because of the previous omissions by those other authors, that was enough to placate me! But she does more than mention that the intrauterine period of life can be traumatic. She writes that some of her clients experience regression to the womb. Bosch also believes that even during early development, fetuses are sentient and can feel the lack of bonding and love:

In my experience with clients, I have noticed that adults who were born without being truly planned and wanted, who were merely an 'accident of nature,' seem to suffer from a feeling of "not having the right to exist in the world." This terrible feeling could have originated in the uterus as a Primary Defense against feeling the truth that the mother did not truly want the child.

The author concentrates on explaining how the therapy works and what we can do to lower our defenses and begin the process of feeling our early traumas. She describes the theoretical aspects of her therapy in many different ways so that the reader approaches the material repeatedly and for this reason should have a good understanding of what the therapy is about.

In the chapter entitled Special Situations and Challenges Ingeborg Bosch examines and explains what to do in certain situations with which the reader may be concerned:

· I don't have any feelings.

· I just feel depressed.

· I feel angry and I think that's good for me.

· I can't remember anything from my past.

· I can't connect my feelings to my old reality.

· How do I know my memories are true?

· It's too scary for me.

· I'm always feeling bad about myself.

· How do I know the difference between an old and adult need?

· But it's happening now!

· How can I keep my feelings from quickly fading?

· etc.

Jean Jenson, in the Foreword writes that the author has expanded the theoretical elements of the therapy she describes in Reclaiming Your Life . Jenson writes that this has resulted in a "renewed" form of her therapy. Bosch's version of the therapy places more emphasis on the need for pro-action than other forms of "primal therapy."

I believe that this emphasis is important and that the author has properly described it as an essential part of the process. According to the Bosch, this primary focusing on self-observation and changing one's behavior, rather than just feeling one's old hurts, has had quite profound effects in both the way the therapy is practiced as well as on its results.

Bosch believes, as does Jenson, that we should not only feel our early repressed feelings but actively seek out triggers to them. This intentional behavior will automatically help lower one's defenses and is an important aide in speeding up one's progress in the therapy.

The author has interesting things to say about the relationship between Western religious doctrines and regressive therapies. She feels that religions help to keep us tethered to our defenses and away from re-living our early feelings. "The idea of being guilty by nature," she writes "is a basic premise in Christianity." In this way religion can become a reinforcement to very common guilt feelings which are not due to personal shortcomings but rather originate in conclusions we came to about ourselves dating to the crib and even before!

Eastern religions also help to keep down those original feelings. She writes that they also prevent us from seeing and believing the truth about what really happened to us during our early upbringing. She feels that religions promote power structures among their hierarchies as well as feelings of sinfulness in its followers. This enables churches to establish power bases which are not necessarily in accord with the needs of its members. (Eastern philosophy was Bosch's minor in graduate school).

She believes the process of healing comprises five steps:

· Intellectually knowing that what we are feeling is not happening in the present; that, in reality, most often the hurts we are feeling are really old early feelings.

· Emotionally realizing the real depth of our early suffering.

· Overcoming the fear of feeling and the fear of reversing our defenses.

· Fully feeling our pain in regressions.

· Applying what we have learned to our behaviors and thoughts.

Bosch writes that through regressions we learn with certainty the origins of the uncomfortable "problem" feelings we have. She feels that this will free us "the next time the symbolic situation presents itself." This is only the beginning in obtaining a cure, as this freedom will only be achieved when we are able to thoroughly feel all of our old pain.

These regressions when accompanied by doing the opposite of what we want to do - what we neurotically fear to do - will eventually result in the healing of our still actively triggered feelings, These feelings of shame, panic, anger, guilt, inadequacy and impatience, etc., which bring us much misery and sabotage so many of our relationships, will eventually become weaker and weaker and eventually disappear.

I found the large number of abbreviations used in Rediscovering The True Self distracting. The therapy, Past Reality Integration, is referred to as PRI. The reader must contend with AC, CC, S, DR, OP, FH, FP, FP-dn, FP-a, PD, OR and OUN. Spelling-out the terminology concepts would not have taken much more room on the printed page and would have made the book easier to read. It is easier to understand the meaning of "symbol" instead than the letter S. A casual reader of Rediscovering The True Self might just give up because of the need to learn the coded terms.

There are a number of interesting sections of the book which present unique diagnostic questions and tests to find out what are one's defenses. Another section one may complete to determine if the concepts of Past Reality Integration are understood. Other helpful sections include case histories of clients, on whether parents should be forgiven, on childrearing and on how our own children can be symbols for us.

Instead of repeating the author's theories of her Past Reality Reintegration, I refer you to the Prologue and Chapter 8 from Rediscovering The True Selfwhich appears on this website. Here she details the most important aspects of her therapy.

I enjoyed reading Rediscovering The True Self and recommend it to others."

"Prologue

[from Rediscovering the True Self - a book by Ingeborg Bosch]

Past Reality Integration Therapy Summarized

Before reading in detail about the theoretical concepts on which Past Reality Integration (PRI) therapy is based, it might be helpful to have a general overview first. Hopefully this will make it easier to understand the theory that is discussed in the next few chapters.

Past Reality Integration (PRI) therapy is based on the idea that we all have a divided consciousness: one part of our consciousness sees the world through the eyes of the child we once were, and feels accordingly. The other part of our consciousness sees the world through the eyes of the adult we now are. Because of this division, we perceive and experience things quite differently, depending on which part of our consciousness we are accessing. For example, one moment we can feel secure, 'on top of things' and competent, and the next moment we might feel depressed, angry, insecure, guilty, etc.

Maybe you recognize this, often sudden, change in the way you feel about yourself and your life. Normally nothing extraordinary occurs to cause such a shift, so we can't make sense out of the change in the way we feel.

On an unconscious level, however, something does happen. What happens is that we are confronted with something, usually a person or a situation, that reminds us, without us being aware of it, of something in our past. Actually it reminds us of something in our past that we had to repress when we were children. This unconscious remembering is what causes a shift from Adult Consciousness to Childhood Consciousness.

PRI therapy is based on the idea that children do not receive what they need. Children need more than food, clothing and shelter, they also need physical and emotional safety, respect for their own identity, loving physical and emotional attention, support, encouragement and warmth. A child needs all these things to become a healthy functioning adult. However, children often grow up with caregivers who are not able to meet all these needs. Facing the truth that some or many of these needs will never be met is too threatening for the child, because her survival depends on her needs being met. In order to survive childhood, most of us had to repress the truth that some of our survival needs would never be met. We could not feel the emotional impact this had on us, and we had to deny the truth of the situation.

There are three basic ways to deny the fact that some or most of our childhood needs will never be met*:

1. We think that we can get our needs met if only we try harder to do or be what we think our parents want us to do or be. This is called False Hope (FH).

2. We tell ourselves that we can do without the fulfillment of these needs: "It's ok that my mother punishes me so harshly, I can tolerate it." This is called False Power - denial of needs (FP - dn). Or we get angry with someone else, blaming them. This is called False Power - anger (FP - a).

3. We blame ourselves: "My father didn't pay much attention to me, I was a stupid child." This is called the Primary Defense (PD).

This way of repressing and denying the truth about our childhood causes our consciousness to divide into the two parts described above. One part that we have conscious access to (which later develops into what we call the Adult Consciousness) and one part that we hide from ourselves and can't access consciously, but which contains the truth about our childhood (which later develops into what we call Childhood Consciousness). For the child we were, this was a very effective survival strategy. It saved us from feeling the pain of the devastating truth that our parents did not fulfill our needs.

The trouble starts when, as adults, we encounter a Symbol (a person or situation that reminds us of the past, while we are not aware of this). Without realizing why, we suddenly experience feelings that we can't understand - we feel unappreciated, misunderstood, depressed, insecure, guilty, etc. We might feel a strong irritation or deep anger that is out of proportion to the situation. All these things signal that we have been triggered into a consciousness shift; from Adult Consciousness (AC) into Childhood Consciousness (CC).

Past Reality Integration (PRI) therapy is aimed at helping the client regain an undivided consciousness. If our consciousness is undivided we won't experience the pain that the child we were had to repress and deny, over and over again, as if it is happening now. PRI therapy works towards this goal by consciously accessing and feeling the old childhood pain.

This is a painful process, but uncovering the truth about the past makes it possible to integrate the old, childhood pain, into our Adult Consciousness (AC). When old, childhood pain is uncovered, felt and integrated, eventually less and less pain will have to be Repressed and Denied, and ultimately the division in consciousness will come to an end. The pain becomes a scar instead of the open wound it is as long as it is repressed and denied in Childhood Consciousness (CC). The old, childhood pain doesn't hurt anymore, it is just a memory. An unpleasant one, but a memory nevertheless. This makes it possible to achieve a sense of inner autonomy, because contact with the True Self will now be restored.

Engaging in PRI therapy means actively feeling any old pain that surfaces when we confront a Symbol. Normally, feeling pain is not something we like to do. In this case it is old, unfelt pain, which can only be resolved by admitting and feeling it. In this respect it is helpful not to be consoled. Consolation, no matter how well intended, will take you out of your feeling and away from integration. There is no need to worry, the feelings will subside by themselves.

PRI therapy also encourages clients to change those behaviors (often ingrained and incorrectly considered to be part of one's nature and personality) that support the denial of the past reality. As explained earlier, such behaviors are called defense mechanisms because they defend us from feeling the old pain. Changing those behaviors - consciously not employing our defense mechanisms - often feels counterintuitive and unsafe, but it is a powerful tool in the healing process aimed at creating an undivided consciousness. Use of this tool can create unexpectedly different behaviors that might not be pleasing to friends, family, or co-workers. Imagine a woman who tries to accommodate her husband in as many ways as possible in the hope of getting love and attention, which never comes. This is an example of False Hope (FH). The woman will need to stop doing anything related to that specific goal of accommodating her husband. This will be very difficult for her and, quite likely, for him too.

Next imagine a man who either reacts angrily or remains totally untouched by a disturbing event (FP - dn), such as being passed over for a promotion he had expected. This is an example of the defense mechanism we call False Power (FP - dn). The "cool" behavior will have to be turned around into behavior that admits such things are painful. This man will have to acknowledge his hurt instead of pretending that "it's no big deal." Such behavior might come as quite a surprise to the people around him because they are accustomed to him being "strong" or stoic.

Now imagine a man who blames himself for events in his life that are not his doing. If someone runs into his car while it is parked in a parking lot, for example, he will feel dreadful about having parked in that particular spot, cursing at himself for being so careless. "If only I would have . . ., but I am too clumsy" is a thought that he has often. This is an example of the defense mechanism that we call the Primary Defense (PD). It consists of blaming ourselves, feeling worthless, meaningless, bad, etc. The Primary Defense has to be countered by admitting that something painful was done to us by someone else. Not because something is wrong with us, that we deserve the treatment, or that we elicited it. This man who is always quick to take the blame will need to stop doing so. Again, this might be quite surprising to those who know him. It could be unpleasant, too, in the case that others find it convenient to blame him, and they exploit his willingness to accept the blame.

In summary, Past Reality Integration therapy is aimed at helping the client work towards an undivided consciousness in order to be free from childhood pain, which surfaces when a Symbol is confronted. To that end, PRI therapy, will encourage the client to:

1. access and feel pain, while knowing it is about the past, not the present, and

2. act oppositely from what has become habitual in many cases, realizing that these behaviors are defense mechanisms that are no longer needed in the present.

N.B. we can only apply PRI successfully when we have (access to) an Adult Consciousness and are capable of providing for our basic survival needs. When these prerequisites cannot be met, e.g. when someone is permanently dependent on caretakers as a result of being mentally challenged, PRI should be discouraged. In those situations a therapy that helps develop and supports coping-strategies is more useful.

Please read Appendix 8 (below), in which a graphical representation of the structure of PRI is presented. Hopefully this Appendix will aid to a further understanding of how PRI is constructed.

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Appendix 8

The Structure of Past Reality Integration Therapy

PRI is based on three pillars: cognition, behavior and emotion and on the ultimate integration of these three pillars into one, during PRI's last phase: the so-called Dual-Consciousness. Attaching more or less importance to any of these three pillars amounts to an incorrect interpretation of PRI. Such a misunderstanding will effect our healing process in an unfavorable way. The content and application of these cognitive, behavioral and emotional elements of PRI is very specifically defined and unique to PRI and should not be taken to be an eclectic combination of the existing Cognitive, Behavior and Regression therapies.

Putting too much of an emphasis on feeling the old pain while not paying enough attention to daily self-observation and the reversing of defenses in the here and now is not effective. This holds true also for a one-sided focus on PRI's cognitive aspects: understanding and recognizing the mechanisms at work, but not reversing defenses nor feeling the pain sufficiently. Lastly, an emphasis on reversing defenses, without sufficiently recognizing and accessing old pain, also isn't a useful application of PRI.



1. Self-observation (cognition)
Meticulous self-observation is the foundation of PRI and never ends. In that sense PRI is not so much a method, as it is a way of life. By observing ourselves very closely we first learn to recognize when we are behaving defensively. Then sooner and sooner it will become clear to us which Symbol activated our defenses. We learn to distinguish the Adult Consciousness from the Child Consciousness and our defenses, and we are aware whether feelings are caused in the here and now or whether they are old. This phase mainly entails being engaged in a cognitive way.

2. Defense Reversal (behavior)
After we have developed a certain skill in observing ourselves and we are fairly able to recognize our defenses, we can start reversing our defenses every time they are activated. Just as is the case with phase one, this phase continues as long as is necessary. That means that as long as we keep on behaving defensively, the need remains to reverse our defenses. Here too it is more accurate to speak of a way of life, than of a temporary medicine. This PRI phase entails a very active engagement with our concrete everyday behavior. In some situations this might lead to applying so-called 'exposure.' This means that we deliberately expose ourselves to that which we would most like to avoid, in order to gain access to the feelings that are hidden behind our avoidance. As important, DR helps us to disidentify from our defenses: to truly acknowledge on a deep cognitive and feeling level that we don't need to defend ourselves anymore and that this idea is an illusion that keeps us imprisoned.

1. Regression (emotion)

After the cognitive and behavioral work in phase one and two, the emotional element receives specific attention especially through the use of regression.

a. Regression with the help of a therapist

Regression with the help of a therapist serves primarily as a way to learn to apply regression independently, not as a means to heal. This phase ends when the client knows how to apply regression by herself. Some people will need much time to achieve this skill, others might be able to apply regression independently with hardly any or even no help at all. For people who have a very hard time accessing their feelings (much FP-dn) DR work is often more effective than accessing old pain with the help of regression during the beginning phases of PRI.

b. Regression Independently

Applying the tool of regression independently is important in order to be able to connect old pain to its true cause: the old reality. In other words: regression serves as a way of gaining access to the repressed contents of the Childhood Consciousness with our Adult Consciousness, in order to facilitate integration of the old pain and the old reality which caused it, into AC. This phase in principle has an end. When we are aware of what the old repressed reality looked like in general and we know (on an emotional level) what that would have felt like, it is not necessary anymore to experience the same old pain over and over again every time a Symbol is confronted. When this stage has been reached regression remains of importance only in those situations in which a Symbol causes a very strong (over or under) reaction, which makes it impossible to apply phase four: Dual-Consciousness. Or when we are confronted with a new Symbol and a pain that we haven't previously accessed and connected to the old reality.

Experiencing regressions can also be considered as a form of 'exposure,' just as is frequently the case with Defense Reversal. After all, during regression we expose ourselves deliberately to old situations and feelings that we would rather not undergo.

1. Dual-Consciousness (cognition, behavior, emotion)

Dual-Consciousness refers to PRI's last phase in which we are able to:

- notice when we are Symbolizing (we can feel old pain come up and identify it as such), - know what the Symbol is,

- know exactly what the pain is that the Symbol brings up and which old reality it is connected to. For example: this is how the child I was felt when so and so did or didn't do such and such,

- allow the pain to be in our body without suppressing/defending against it (as we did before PRI therapy) or increasing it(as during Regression) until it subsides by itself, while we stay connected to the present reality and act based not on our defenses but on our adult consciousness.

In this fourth phase of PRI, the Dual-Consciousness, PRI's three pillars - cognition, behavior, emotion - integrate into one.

This phase ends in theory when all our defenses have been dismantled, nothing works as Symbol anymore, we have integrated all old pain and we are continuously and permanently in to our Adult Consciousness, completely in touch with the here and now, from an undivided consciousness … This is a goal that most of us might spend a lifetime (or more…) on before reaching it! However, do not let yourself be discouraged, because no matter how far removed this final phase may be, every step on the path there is very worthwhile because it will influence our lives and the lives of our loved ones in such a valuable way.

The following movement will develop during a successful PRI process:

- from 'Unconsciously being Burdened': We find many problems on our life's path, but are quite unable to understand or succesfully deal with them, to

- 'Consciously Being': self-observation provides us with the recognition of and insight into our emotional problems, to

- 'Consciously being Burdened': as a result of Defense Reversal and opening up to old pain in regression (so called 'exposure') to

- 'Consciously being Unburdened': the relief we experience in the state of Dual-Consciousness, when we are able to function in the here and now from an Adult Consciousness, without fighting to keep up our defenses with which we had erroneously identified, because we now know that old pain does not need to be fended off.

- 'Unconsciously being Unburdened' More and more areas of our life will become free from the influence of our past. A freedom which often is so complete that it becomes unconscious.

When we are able to experience the Present for what it truly is, it is usually surprisingly unburdened."